(((dshantel))) I notice you're un medicated. I'm bipolar and could not put one foot in front of the other without my medications. Why aren't you treating your depression? In this day and age it seems cruel for someone like you to suffer as you are when there is treatment for depression. I wish you could feel better without meds but right now it does not seem so and it's affecting your life in a huge way. I hope this doesn't sound too judgy. I just want you to feel better like I do.