Hang in there!

It really sounds to me like you've had a rough time, honestly.

I can't really say what is best for you.

You must do what is best for your own mental health; regardless of what you choose; just know that we would support you.

[if it were me; personally; I'd probably have a second opinon from a brand new pdoc; although; I ackowledge you already feel like you've run around in circles enough]