I do not understand. I like school, I want to go to school! It's so hard for me to get up in the morning. I managed to get up this morning, get somehow motivated to go to class and headed to school.
But a few minutes later, I found myself calling my mother and telling her I was heading back home because I wasn't feeling well! I didn't feel physically well in the first place, but I chose to suck it up and go to school - I don't want to miss any classes, and also I had managed to solve a very complicated Physics problem, which I wanted to tell the teacher so she could feel proud of me! All of this didn't happen, and now I'm left -again- with the task of catching up with everything I've missed.
I understand a part of me is depressed, but why doesn't this stop? It didn't happen before, now I just feel void, unreal, sad... all the time and I am unable to function?!?!?
I was sort of happy this morning because I actually wanted to go to class, but then it was frustrated!
I can't cope with this anymore, I just want this to stop. I don't know why they are back. I was doing so good. I just feel like cr*p now.
Tom