{{{{{{{Angela}}}}}}}}}}}}}

No, I shouldn't be out of the hospital right now. I knew that the moment I started feeling out of control when we left the hospital. I had to go - bills, insurance, etc......the usual reasons that I can't take care of me.

Plus my son wanted me home badly. Why can't people understand though that I'm not "me"? I'm trying very hard to keep it together - thinking it's got to get easier to do, and not believing a word of it when I know in 2 weeks what my pay will be like and I can't pay something or keep h happy.

Everything will be forgotten by then, and everything will be my fault again. I dread it and the feelings it produces.

I'm looking for reasons myself, just not doing real well at it which makes me look completely selfish.

Thanks for the hugs.