hey mouse. i think i understand. i went through a stage of negative transference with my current t. he couldn't seem to say anything right and whatever he said resulted in my feeling mad and unheard. he felt... well... i felt an aversion to him.

icky feelings...

can you describe them a little more?

this too shall pass, mouse. positive transference... then some negative transference... then some positive transference again...

you know... one sense of 'positive transference' is about how it feels to experience it. so 'positive transference' is about feeling loved and secure and stuff while 'negative transference' is about feeling icky or whatever.

there is another sense of the terms, however, where 'positive transference' is theraputic progress and 'negative transference' is something that hinders theraputic progress. so good feelings can hinder progress if they are a mask for some of the icky stuff and feeling the icky stuff - actually feeling it - can be progress indeed.

if those feelings are coming up... it means your mind is ready to deal with them. hang in there mouse.