. I am secretly kind of hoping it is cancer. Then I can check out without looking like I gave up[/quote]

This quote and the title of your thread "tired of being tired", let me know that there are other people out there as messed up as I am. I've been dealing with depression since my mid 20's-and I'm the ripe old age of 61 now. It's been a few years since I've felt good. Just the memories of some of the good times and the love I have for family keep me going sometimes. All I can say to you is maybe tomorrow will be a good day, and I'd hate to miss it. Just hang in there.