I was stuck behind a slow moving truck on a country road and I got to a turn that would take me right past T1's house and is a bit of a 'long cut' home. (T1 worked from home so I know where he lives)
I decided to take the turn, using the justification that I would be avoiding the truck, though I know I really did it because I wanted to go past his house. I have actually done this a couple of times before, but always on days I know he works away from home.
Well, low and behold, as I approach his house I see him in his front garden. I didn't look at him as I drove past but he was facing the road and not very many cars go past his house, plus I think he would recognise my car.
After I saw him I felt totally freaked out. I was shaking. I know I did this because my current T is away and I have been processing what went on with T1 in quite an uncontained way and having lots of mixed feelings including anger towards him.
so there are two parts to this, my fear he saw me and wonders what caused me to take that route, and also the destabilising effect seeing him has had on my already fragile feelings about everything.