Is that bad?

I have a session in 4 hours......and I am so anxiius, angry, sad, scared, annoyed, hurt........all those things I guess and more, that I feel sick with anticipation.

Really want to tell him to stick it!

Would that be hurting myself too, if I don't at least try for a good ending wih him?

Gah! Looking for support to get me there I think.