I am sorry your heartbreak. my partner told two days ago that she doesn't want to be with me and that my up and down cycles are too much. she said demand too much and am draining. what can I say? she is right. I am all those and I feel worth less and don't want to be close to anyone..relationship wise. this bdp I feel is destroying my realtionships. but what more can I do? I am doing my psychotherapy along with medications. I guess I just accept the rejection and try move forward. at least the thoughts of suicide or hurting myself don't feel intense. infact I have I do desire to do anything of those things. I ask myself why is it me with bpd? why am hurting others and putting them through though all my ups and downs? It's not fair to ask anyone to put up that. so I guess it is better that she ended things with her. the pain feels over whelming and I am trying to move forward. I also realize there will be a tine she will be someone ne wand the sick feeling in my stomach makes me physically. i just have to live day by day and try to be present in the now.
beth