Hahahhaha (((hallie)))

You said:

"Im an open book with NO filter when Im manic so theres no telling what I told people."

What makes you suspect I am completely manic haha

THAT was how I was able to be so upfront in my response to your post!

I was rather blunt wasn't I? Haha

You can certainly feel entitled to miss the "feel good factor".

Hell yeah! I miss that. That is hypomania sure. Who doesn't want to feel good. I do! Always.

I just don't want all the "other stuff".

That is my only reality check when I am not manic and I'm yearning for an artificial "feel good factor" when Depressed or in a Plateau.

I need to remind myself that there are so many risks involved with this chemically induced mania that brings this feel good feeling.

I'd rather working on less high risk factors during Depression and Stability to boost me towards feeling better.