I'm ocd, primarily obsessional, or at least, my symptoms are consistent with that.

As for you digging through my posts and getting pissed, it's not as if there is a soul alive with things that don't hold up to scrutiny. In fact, part of problem is that I have an inconsistent character both with therapists and online, which I do admittedly because it sometimes spurs people to say things they otherwise wouldn't have.

This behavior started because I'm hugely reluctant in believing that people understand what I'm saying most of the time, in person----I consider this a component to my ocd. It is such a problem that it produces symptoms of it's own, because I think how can a proper diagnosis be made when proper or perfect communication cannot be guaranteed and we can never even know if the other person understands things as you do? I get caught up on this, and I attempt to communicate ideas indirectly, hoping they will read between the lines or come to an agreeable conclusion without my explicit input, because I doubt they will come to the proper conclusion or grossly misinterpret what I say/do if I try to be direct, and this is obviously not optimal or organic human interaction.
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On a sidenote, I was wondering if that post would ever see the light of day or not. I guess people on here do check posting history, which I find mildly surprising.

As for "what's really on my mind" I didn't have anything bad to say about the people that frequent here, if that's what you're getting at. It's just a female dominant forum with a lot of freely flowing cyber-affection, and I thought that some of my darker thoughts being posted on the aspd forum might somehow affect my posting over here, and it appears I was correct---due to lack of privacy.