Quick Note: Please, read all of this. I am lost and I need guidance.

Hello, My name is Christopher. I’m 18 years old and I’m currently thinking I am bipolar.

Let’s start off with my childhood, I grew up without a father due to drug use but I had a stepdad who stepped into the picture when I was 3 years old. I grew up seeing domestic violence, cheating, and mental abuse thrown towards my way from the ages of 3 to 16. My behavior was sporadic. I was always an intelligent amazing school kid but at home I was hypersensitive and sad. I would cry excessive and things that would normally not bother people would bother me to the point of exhaustion. Also, I was hyper sexual. I was thinking of sex at the young age of 7 and I do not know if that is normal.

As I grew older, I became more and more depressed. I would sleep a lot and just lost interest in almost all things. I left middle school due to emotional issues and began homeschooling. When I hit the age of 16, I left home due to emotional abuse and moved into my aunt’s house where I first discovered that I had fibromyalgia which i was prescribed Vicodin due to pain.

I became needy for them real quickly due to the medication causing me to have motivation, happiness, and calming of the mind. I was taking them for almost 2 years (I do not take any anymore) and that was the best two years I’ve had growing up. I was myself, but to anyone reading this thinking of doing drugs.. don’t.. withdrawals are hell on earth, people.

Anyways, I am now not using any type of medication and have not for four months. I believe the pain medication numbed my emotions and caused me to not experience any symptoms besides Mania ( i felt onto of the world)

Currently I have symptoms of:
Depression
Detached from reality/trapped in mind feeling when alone
I argue with everyone
I don’t think before speaking
I talk fast
and my brain is always racing

I do not know if I am bipolar but I am seeing a therapist and psych in the next week or so.

Does this sound like you? Do you have any advice for me? Does this sound like bipolar?