Hello welcome to psychcentral. I find this community forum to be very supportive and understanding. It is confusing at first to get the diagnosis but it does help to know what's going on inside. I understand your not wanting to take meds and not everyone has to, some people can go off meds while at baseline and manage the symptoms with scheduling, expertise and coping mechanisms they've learned with T. Someone correct me if I'm wrong. I'm no expert just another person who may share similar experiences. Also BPD us used on here in reference to borderline personality disorder and BP for bipolar disorder. Typically from what I've learned hypomania can get worse and turn into mania if left untreated. It seems as though this is a progressive disorder if left untreated. If you are BP it is good that you didn't take the anti depression meds as they make BP mania or hypomania worse without a mood stabilizer. Sorry if I'm just rambling on. Just trying to help. I don't know anything about Alzheimer's being linked though. I hope everything gets better for you.