Thank you. This is new behavior. i see now how others have taken to drinking. I have to stop but haven't. I have set my mind to. Now, I realized that i can't touch it as it became an addiction like smoking. I quit smoking last year.
There is no company to help me.
I admit that it is only thing that is feeling good right now. When it wears off, it doesn't I'm not drinking do much that I have hang over.
I feel I am going crazy.
I don't think I am thinking right anymore.
Something is off.
There is no more help.
I think I reached out enough.
God gave me inside that doesn't seem to work while outside looks fine. This is worse than outside looks bad but inside works well. Most people get angry at us that inside is broken. They keep showing us the strength of the people who's outside is weak but inside is strong. I admire them but those stories are naming me feel worse about myself. They punish me with those stories. It is not inspirational.