Thank-you Mouse. I have just written a letter to me T saying that I will not be coming anymore. I know my T has always told me to keep coming and how important it is to end "properly", but I do not feel in a place where I can end things properly. I know I am not fixed and have more work to do, but right now I am tired of being what I feel is a difficult client and I am trying to reflect before sending the letter. I know for me there will be no going back after I send and am trying to untangle my head to make sure that I am doing the right thing.

Many T's don't allow email between sessions and I know that in the past I have been allowed to and had fairly quick responses, I get that it is better to talk in sessions rather than emailing, but I just can't deal with the feeling of being ignored or unimportant.

Ergh, I hate this place in my head.