Hi Jaybird, good point! see my head knows all the theory, but I feel totally paralysed by this overwhelm at the moment.

I am sitting here on the internet researching other T's and find myself so picky when reading their websites - spelling mistakes mostly - am I being shallow or am I picking up on lack of attention to detail which I perceive will be transferred to me and they will not notice me, or miss things?

You are right of course, we can learn more from staying than running, but I just can't bear feeling like this until I see my T next.