Thanks for putting so much information! I'll definitely read the safety plan link.

I am not just having thoughts I actually relapsed unfortunately.

I had a Pdoc, but stopped seeing him as he couldn't fix the mania I was in because of my meds. And I have been diagnosed with depression. I went off meds and was okay for a while, but now I have slipped back into another depression.

I also have a therapist but just started with her after terminating with my other one, so our relationship is pretty new. I like her but at the same time, I don't have much trust for her yet. Plus she is young and doesn't fully get how to help me. Maybe it's because she doesn't know me well.

I have been sleeping alright, roughly 4-6 hours, which is good for me. I use to get .5-1 hour a night about a month ago. And it's getting better thankfully!