You only 4 weeks left of school so no need for tuition. Take a loan. Not a big deal. I wouldn't tolerate my husband gone every weekend from home. Taking breaks is ok but this is beyond taking breaks. I am very forgiving but I wouldn't stick around. Not the kind of relationship I personally am ok with. My daughter is 27, married for a year. I would advice Her to leave and she wouldn't stick around such nonsense, absolutely not. I believe you need therapy to address low self esteem issue. I don't know how else to assist you.