I think therapy can sometimes make people's lives worse, it is not necessarily the best thing to do to keep going. I saw a T for nine months. Before starting with her I was sleeping well - deeply through the night every night. While I saw my T I slept badly and lost my motivation in life, I had moments where I sobbed every day. I stopped seeing her 6 weeks ago and, after a difficult two weeks, gradually started sleeping again, and am now my normal motivated self, but in a better state than I was before therapy. I've just started with a new T as I feel that my therapy was unfinished business and I'm hopeful that with a different T it will have a different impact on me. I think you are right to question whether your therapy is really doing you any good, it doesn't sound like it is to me.