I lost my mom in March 2014 to copd and emphysema so I understand how hard it is to watch someone deteriorate from smoking. My mom had quit 30 years ago but the damage was done. It bothers me to see people smoke also. I have three siblings who smoke. You would think they would have learned. When my mom was in a coma my brother was smoking in the same room as her. I got angry when I saw he left his pack of cigarettes in there and through them out the door. I understand your anger. I am sorry you had to go through this at a young age. hugs to you.