I almost always email my agendas each week. This helps because I have trouble talking. I am just going to email her this. She has always handled the tough things well. She contains my feelings so well. Don't get me wrong, good things have come out of therapy but this is greatly overshadowed by extreme painful transference. I am just going to put it all out there. Maybe, she will have ideas or maybe she will tell me we should take a break. I do believe she had my best interests at heart. I just need to say this stuff over and over I guess. I feel like I have already said it (in bits and parts). I feel like I don't get much back from her except your feelings are ok, this is to be expected with your background, feelings are feelings and I want you to express them blah blah blah.......