I understand that feeling of social isolation. I have never been good with other people. I have always had severe social anxiety and have never been able to figure out how to interact with "normal" people. Hell I learned to read when I was four in preschool because I didn't know how to play with the other kids.

I've never felt like I was good enough to be friends with people.meven when I had friends I would assume they didn't notice me or thought I was just someone who was around, not a real friend. I felt like they always had better friends to be with. And none of my friendships last more than a couple of years. Once life takes me out of the situation in which I see them, I drift away because I feel unworthy of reaching out.

Thank god I met my husband. Without him and the chance circumstances that brought us together I'd surely be alone. Now I can say I have two girl friends, my brother's gf and my husband's sister. I'll try to hang out with them and we can talk, though I dont share much of my personal struggles when I have them.

I've always been much better at online communication. Which is why I agree with the previous poster about not discounting online friendships you have made here.

Just wanted to stop in and say I relate!