So yeah-have been in denial about depression coming back & sitting on me like a big elephant...Felt like this a couple of months ago & have been fighting it tooth & nail working on using all my coping skills & staying busy & positive but last night I cried for the first time in months (think the meds have something to do with that-used to cry bout all kinds of things). Feel super crappy today-took the stupid depression quiz & got a 70-when I first started posting on here I got like a 55 so....sucks. See my T this afternoon & have to call pdoc for appointment today. Blech I hate this-tried to talk to my spouse but he goes into more denial than me so not very helpful-he's sweet but just doesn't get it. Don't think he wants to face up to the fact that I really am this sick. Sorry to be such a downer-it's like now that I've acknowledged it it's just completely pulling me down. Bleak would be the best description of me right now.