I decided to mention my mom's concerns in passing but not to focus on them. Luckily, he didn't say much about it and he didn't change my meds. He thought my speech was fine and not pressured. He did say I seemed so much better to him. The only other thing he noted on was my sleep. He just told me to call if I go more than a few nights without sleeping. He didn't seem overly concerned though. He wants me back in 2 weeks which is a small red flag because he usually only does that if there is something wrong and I don't know what could be wrong. I couldn't ask him what it is because he wrote it on my sheet, he didn't tell me so I didn't know until I got out to schedule my next appointment. Maybe it was because of little sleep over 2 days? Maybe it is because I am still having some suicidal thoughts (but he knows me and it will take a while for those to subside)? I LOVE this new medicine but I am also a bit of a skeptic about it. I have trouble believing that it helped my productivity and in turn is in the process of (it seems) lifting my mood that quickly. I told him about my skepticism. He said he needed a med that would pull me out of the hole and he thought this might do it and it seems to be working. My crazy *** left his office thinking there is NO WAY that medicine did that, it is all in my head. I don't need meds and I don't need my (amazing) pdoc. I just need to turn around and not look back. Now, pray tell, what the hell is wrong with me?