Obviously I can't diagnose bipolar. What you mentioned sounds a bit like bipolar, but all the sex and sleeping around can also be a trauma response, especially if your abuse was recently brought up again.

If it IS bipolar, though, you really need to reevaluate how you feel about that dx. It does not mean you will be chained to meds for your whole life. There are quite a few people on this board who live successfully without medication. Besides that, you can learn to manage your life through therapy. Does the DX bring a lot of pain? Sure, but not anymore than depression and PTSD, which you seem to be ok with having. Bipolar is just another mental Illness. It's really not as bad as you make it out to be. If you do have it, you've been that way for quite awhile most likely, so why should a label affect you so much?

I'm a firm believer in treating symptoms and not being too caught up with a label. I am much happier when I'm not spending my days analyzing whether I'm in an episode, going into an episode, whether I'm manic or depressed or what. For me I DO need medication but I might not always, as I have managed without meds a few years.

I really think you would benefit from therapy more than medication at this point. You need to learn how to deal with your trauma and also how to live your life with your symptoms. Come to terms with your diagnosis, if that's what it even is.

Good luck to you. Feel free to keep coming back so you can gain a better understanding of this disorder and how it affects everyone differently. You are not cursed.