i meant to checkout the chat today but i frgt. ive had an exhausting day running errands i didnt do the entire week.

sorry

ive also been thinking about. my illness.
and ive come to realize... trying to be well has made me try to push anything i percieve as being "delusional" away and thats just not me. but yet im not "delusional". im just me. if im "delusional" to other people that just who i am. i am just me. i cannot change that. i am just who i am. im so scared to come across as sick to other people.

i cant change who i am. i just cant. i cant for the sake of me but then i literally cant.