I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. I am currently 6 months pregnant. Although this pregnancy was planned it hit me like a ton of bricks, and I don't mean the physical part (everything has been running along a-ok).

I had to start medication again after 10+ years of self coping (somewhat successfully). I am currently taking 20 mg of cipralax (sp?) and have been taking it for almost the entire duration of my pregnancy.



Pretty severe depression and anxiety that I had never felt with such intensity before (none of which relate to the idea of the baby or being pregnant - in fact I often forget that I am). I couldn't function at work and am currently still on disability.

I have not and cannot get anything done around the house.
My FIL has been cooking all the suppers and doing the dishes, the dogs haven't been walked (I won't say how long because I am super embarrassed). I spend a lot of time sleeping and can't even summon the energy to talk to people outside of my home (even a simple phone call)

Sorry this is so long, I just wanted to show you that you are not alone and wherever you are right now is OK. My councillor told me to notice the "shoulds" that I put on myself and it was really helpful to me. Once I started to notice how much pressure I was putting on myself (and it was ridiculous how many times I noticed myself thinking those "should" thoughts) I just allowed myself to be where I was. It didn't help with the cleaning or improve my depression, but I was able to find a bit of relief none the less.

Omg I wrote you a novel. I'm here if you ever need someone to pregnant vent to