Does anybody else when manic or in a mixed episode say things they don't mean to the people you supposedly love ? Or get so irritated your mind is going faster than you are and it's racing and you just are irrated and can't think straight and the simplest little thing pissed you off to the extent that you look back later when your out of that phase and realize what the eff was I thinking and realized how you said horrible things! This happens to me especially when I don't sleep does anybody else get this way ? I'm just wondering bc I'm starting to wonder what if it's just me ? Bc the things I say when manic is mean and hateful it's like it not me :/ for real and then I start to think what if am some demon :/ it's only when I get like that bc no regular human would be able to say the mean things I say when I get this way and even growing up as a little girl I would push my friends away bc I would have the werid outburst of getting mad at them over nothing and stuff :/ I lost friends i feel alone sometimes! I want to be loved sometimes I want my husband to love me sometimes.. It's like he hates me. For real it's like I am married but don't hage a partner I guess I am not a good person..