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Originally Posted by HD7970GHZ
I want to be a child again. I want someone to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be okay. I want to cry on someones shoulder for as long as I can - and just rest in that comforting - nurturing - feeling.
Anyone else want this?
I don't want to get attached to another DBT therapist after what happened last time - but I know that I will. Regardless of how many boundaries I put up - I will inevitably fall in love with my therapist and re-enact my desires for a mother who is actually nurturing and loving.
I miss my therapist even though she abandoned me... I am torn.
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Sorry you miss your T so much - what reasoning behind the abandonment.
Mine abandoned me in a way - though I was the one to choose no more contact. He abandoned me in what I think is the worst way - he betrayed me - he did not act in my best interest - he was duplicitous, never telling me of his change in attitude or intentions which I believe meant to do me harm.
No , I am not paranoid delusional which so many will automatically think of when it is someone with mental/emotional problems accusing a professional. People need to be straight about it, "professionals" are people too and must earn and deserve our trust. I have learned that is the best approach for me - my cynicism again - but it is safest to keep a certain distance at least initially until I have enough knowledge about the person to decide for myself it is wise/safe to trust them. Even then i could still be wrong.
Though I will say I have grown to realize and recognize that "inner voice" within me who has very good instincts even if there are no words to describe exactly - for example, why I feel misgivings about someone's motivations.
The few times i have ignored that voice, one in particular it was a major error on my part for which the price was quite high.