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Originally Posted by Steiner of Thule
I try to be happy.
I eat well. I take vitamins. I take meds. I workout.
Yet- I always feel sad inside.
Life feels sort of hopeless and dull.
I got a job but it's made life become more dull and hopeless in a sick twisted sense. Is this all there is. I just don't see much of a reason to live long. Yet I am still here. I am lost inside. Sort of wandering with no real place for me. Making very little money and I guess after awhile that saying money doesn't buy happiness starts to make sense. I can't buy my happiness. Maybe for a short while but eh. I don't think anything would make me happy. It's like I start to become distant from everything.
All my desires.
A piece at a time, I remove my shallow joys from life, until nothing is left.
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I know how you feel. I've been here before. You basically are going through the motions of life, sort of on auto pilot. Just because that's what you have to do to keep going. But why? Why bother right? Again, I know how you feel. Maybe with some therapy, or a change in therapy, medication etc could help improve things. You said you do a lot to take care of yourself. Keep going! you're doing awesome. Maybe try something new? keep reaching out and don't give up.