Yes, I say things I do not mean or, what sometimes can be worse, write messages I later regret. Sometimes they are just silly things I would not say if I were not maniac and that make me feel embarrassed afterwards. But last year there was a period I was lashing out at my boyfriend for no reason at all, and now every time I think of that my heart breaks. He has always been an angel and has never said anything hurtful to me.

Now when I start to feel maniac I try to think twice before saying something and avoid sending text messages or emails. It does not always work, though.