Got Dad home today. Around noon. He is not walking good . Needs assistance when getting out of his wheelchair. I am trying to let him see on his own how difficult this will be . But he is not buying into it. He wants so much to just die in his home where he's lived for 50+ yrs. I dont blame him. But he needs help and I know now that I cannot do it. Just what I've done today has hurt my back so much. I am at times keeping him held up on my own so he can go to the bathroom etc. I dont know how this is all going to pan out. I just know I cant do it all. And I feel that is what has been dropped onto my lap once more. heading back in to his house now... I miss my friends here.. and I feel like I wont get to see you much at all for awhile ....