getting down to the real problem i am struggling with is the isolation and absolutely NO motivation. i am always a little messy, my clothes are often dirty because i cant force myself to go to the laundromat even when i have the time, a WHOLE day and all i want myself to do is get my clothes clean but instead i will sit for hours in the same spot. i will say to myself "PLEASE do this, PLEASE do that-" i just lack the will. this is because i feel like i cant leave the house like i dont have energy. when its possible i only leave my house when i have a ride somewhere and i dont have a car so that is sometimes only a few days a week.

i know this was a lot, so if youre still reading i appreciate it. i dont know exactly what im asking for, i just genuinely dont have anyone to talk to so any support or advice would really mean so much to me.

thank you