thanks guys! yeah this sudden cooperation we're having is pretty cool but pretty strange too, i'm not sure how long it'll last in the face of real therapy because right now it's just all of us hanging out and gardening and then doing our best to try and talk each night, not much stress or triggers
the only thing about that is then the denial and doubt creeps in... "this is suddenly too easy maybe i'm making it all up...?"
and at the appt she asked if i could ask any of them if they remembered any abuse that i couldn't remember and they all ran away and i felt so alone
so i try to keep that feeling in my memory because it reminds me that it's real because if there wasn't constant chatter then it wouldn't sound so deadly silent when it all stopped
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