I feel so low lately. Just ugly and useless. Scared and on edge all the time. I don't want to be here in this place anymore. Loneliness is misery. I want friends and people I have not hurt to care about me. Care if I live or die or get cancer. I have kids who truly care which I'm grateful for. My boyfriends says he cares but I hurt him so he will never care the way I need him to. I'm so sad all the time. I can't do this much longer.