I have been replying to posts, but I have not been posting new topics myself.

I guess its because I feel good and I don’t really have any burning issues.

Well, I thought maybe I’d post about the good things happening for me. For the first time in a long time I can say I am depression free!!! Yeah, it feels so good. I was depressed for such a long time. Before I would get a bit better for a month and then get depressed again. Now, the depression has been gone for some time. I no longer feel like I am waiting for the other shoe to drop—I feel like the depression might stay gone for awhile.

My therapy is going good and I am making progress on things like self esteem and self worth. I have a ways to go, but I feel positive about my growth.

And, as most of you know, I did graduate this quarter. Working full time and working on my masters was so draining. Now, I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can breath. It has just been in the last few days that I really felt the accomplishment of graduating. For awhile it just did not feel real—its starting to set in now. I did it!

I have been painting and reading…I feel relaxed and creative.

I am coming off my wellbutrin and my brain is starting to clear up a bit. Seemed like the wellbutrin was causing some fogginess and problems with my memory.

I am looking towards my future and I am hopeful that things will continue to improve. I have optimism that I will continue to grow…I was always so pessimistic about my future and now I am planning for it—taking active steps to make myself financially secure for retirement, developing myself professionally, improving my house, working on my painting…for the first time in my life I am dreaming—dreaming about what things could be like and feeling like maybe my dreams will come true. It is possible for me to get where I want to be…I have goals and I am working towards them.

Sorry, this has gotten so long…here are a couple of my paintings: