Things have changed so much the past few months and IDK if it's me or you or both of us or if I'm imagining it. IDK if it's b/c I've read alot of stuff here on PC about therapists. All I really know is that you don't answer the emails that I need you to. You only answer the positive ones. I know that you've always had my best interests at heart, but I feel so lost now. Not talking about the "bad thing" doesn't make it go away. It just pushes it underground. You know how strong underground movements can be. What happened this week is pushing me over the edge. Since you didn't reply, I deleted your email from my contacts. I still remember it and it's still on my iPod, but it's much harder to email you now. Hopefully, it's difficult enough that I think before I send.

Also, are you OK? Are you thinking about moving? Do you need to drop me as a client? Is this just my abandonment fear or my difficulty with change rearing its ugly head?

I want to be the person that you believe I am.

This is making me cry again. I think I'll go hide in my bed.