I say things I don't mean when I get triggered. Sometimes triggers are worse than others. It's almost always lashed out at my partner.
When I get worked up really bad, I can get violent. He disrespected me once a few days ago and I impulsively knocked a plate out of his hands and shoved him over. I don't do well with disrespect. He deserved it.

That being said, I say things that I shouldn't and act disrespectful sometimes because I am not perfect either. I have an illness. The most important part is admitting I am wrong.
We can't go back and change the words we say, or the actions we do but we can show remorse without excuse.

When I know I've said something I shouldn't have I don't use my bipolar as an excuse even though it's what made me like that. I apologize for my behavior, admit my wrongs and do what I can to prove my sincerity. There are no "buts"

Don't beat yourself up, admit when you are wrong and truly accept that we can't change the past, we can only acknowledge our present to help our future.