Feeling hurt and angry about past events and people that have brought us where we are I think fuels depression.

I always hate it when people tell you "Look at so and so, their life is harder than yours and they don't feel bad."

Eggplantlife it is worth a try to contact your local AA. I believe membership is free. They like for you to attend meetings frequently, especially at first. I also have heard that people find other helpful people in the group because everyone there either has struggled with alcohol or is struggling currently. I am willing to bet you would also meet lots of people struggling with depression. AA may not help everybody. But I have a close family member who has been attending AA for 8 months and she is so proud that she has been sober for 8 months.

Take care of yourself. We love you.