What if I never find a job?
I've been following the advice of Burns and going through the what ifs:

PD: What if you never find a job?
ME:...that'll be terrible I won't be able to pay my bills. PD: What will happen if you can't pay your bills?
ME: All of my stuff will get taken away from me, I'll have to declare bankrupcy, I'll be homeless.
PD:What if all these things happen?
ME: I'll be a failure and a worthless human being.
PD: Really? So if Bob doesn't work or can't pay his bills through unforseen circumstances that makes him a failure and a worthless human being?
ME: No of course not, Bob tried and he's out of work. No one can fault him for losing his job or not being able to find another one especially if he is trying.
PD: Are you trying?
ME: Yes.
PD: Then why are you not like Bob? Why are you worthless and a failure?
ME: I should have a job, I should be able to pay my bills, this is what a successful young adult should do.
PD: It's inconvenient to be out of work but that doesn't make you a failure.

No fast food company will hire me because I have a degree. I'm positive my chances of finding work are slim, I've been passed over again and again. I'm tired of trying.

Maybe all the bullies and haters over the years are right. Maybe I am a loser, destined to never have love, destined to be a failure. I am tired of trying. I thought once I reached adulthood everything about life would fall into place.

People talk about the years flying by and before they know it they've been working for a company for fifteen years. The years have never flown by for me. I've always been setting goals for myself...go visit this place before the kiddies are out of school for the summer, finish this online class before Independence Day, get through this work week so you can enjoy the weekend. Yet, each day has been a sort of torture.

Why? Why do I feel this way?