I am coping today. There have been down moments but I have tried to keep myself distracted. I find it difficult without any support network. I see a counsellor once a week but I find it little help. I really see it as a waste of my time and effort. I have told none of my friends about this, as I am too ashamed. My parents are aware but I think they are at a loss as to what to do. I have no partner as I know I am not stable or happy enough to be with somebody for more than a few hours. Work is a distraction but I don't particularly enjoy it. I used to have a lot of interests but they've just all died. I literally gain no pleasure from anything. I don't even gain any real satisfaction from my promiscuity. I just feel lost in myself. I can't escape my thoughts for very long. I just wish I could reboot myself. I just don't understand how this is all happening. I don't remember the last time I didn't feel anxious. I just want to be happy again. Is that too much to ask?!