POSSIBLE TRIGGER
Has your therapist even advised you on what work it is you are supposed to be doing in between sessions? What support does she have set up for you in case you get to your 'breaking point'?

As someone who used to be at high-risk for suicide daily, there is no way 45 minutes, bi-weekly sessions would have been nearly enough for me. My T. had me in weekly for 90 minute sessions, plus additional phone and email support as needed.

You need to demand more time. You deserve it. If your current T. can't give it to you, you owe it to yourself to find someone who can. You are worth the effort!