I so can relate! We hadn't intended on having kids at all and than four years ago SURPRISE I got pregnant. I was miserable and depressed. Luckily it happened right after I'd weaned myself off my lamictal. I just had to stop taking my alprazolam. I was so sick and anxious. My doctor put me on 25mg of sertraline (which I was weary about because that stuff made me manic the first time I was put on it, but I didn't know what to do because I was so depressed and anxious!). It didn't make me manic. It just helped with my depression and anxiety (maybe because of all the pregnancy hormones?). Anyway, so than things weren't as bad. I admittedly regret taking it now because our daughter is delayed and I blame that, but at the time both my ob and psychiatrist said it was safe, and my pdoc said it would have been worse if I was depressed.

Anyway, totally relate. It'll be okay though.

Also, I got PPD really bad after she was born, so as another poster recommended make sure you have a plan for afterwards.