{{{{{{{{{{{{{Mary Alice}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I want so badly for things to get better for you. Yes, God has a purpose for you. Alex needs you for one thing, but there is more to it than that also. There are things for you to do and learn and accomplish in this life, for your own benefit and to help others.

What is it going to take for you to push off and start climbing, and make the changes in your life that you need to so that you can have enjoyment in life? There is a reason why you are still alive, but being alive isn't enough. You need to live too, and you can't just keep going the way you are. You work too hard and you give too much to people who are bottomless pits and will drain you empty and keep asking for more. That doesn't work. You have to start with taking care of yourself and getting your needs met (even if that means hospital for a while), or you won't have anything to give to anyone.

I'm sorry about your mother's comments. That just isn't helpful to have someone putting their hurt above yours - which was painful enough to get you into the situation you were in. I know what that is like.

Mary Alice, your husband is every bit as capable of working as you are. He needs to do something to support you, or you need to dump him and stop letting him suck you dry. This isn't right. You should not have to get a second job in order to provide his luxuries.

Please get some rest and take care of yourself and give the new T a chance. You can make it, but you are going to have to start considering your own needs and making them a priority.

With Much Love,
Wendy xoxxoxooxoxx