I have the same fears and frustrations sometimes. This seems to be a reoccurring theme among some of us spouses on this site. Why can't our loved ones just be supportive??!! It really hurts to think that someone that you love so much, who is supposed to love you unconditionally, could even consider leaving you. I am so sorry SKY! I honestly wish you the best in your marriage and in your family. Please remember that your mental illness is not the cause of these issues. As you mentioned him triggering you, for example, he is also responsible for these arguments. It is never one person's responsibility.