I know how you feel hun, it scares me to talk about it because I feel like it's all fake, that my brain can't be trusted. Between, bipolar, DID, derealization and depersonalization, I just don't believe it sometimes. I'm afraid of starting therapy and to be told that I'm just acting.

Getting stabile on meds tells me that's the way I always were, till I quit meds and then lose it.

I hope you get to feeling better Sweety.