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Originally Posted by vital
Hi,
Here's my best advice for the depression:
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thanks for the link..
for number 1, i did a complete blood test not to long ago and all turned out normal
for number 2, i already off ADs for the past 3 months, i get around 8 hours sleep everyday, i've also been trying to quite smoking/porn addiction for the past 2 days
for number 3, kindly view my last reply
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Originally Posted by Annaflower
have you tried therapy?
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i've only followed up with psychiatrists so far, they sit there listen to my problems like an emotionless recording machine and then proceed to add/subtract, change my antidepressants
what kind of therapy are we talking about?
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Originally Posted by sidestepper
I have no great words of wisdom, but I understand the feelings. It sounds like you are not seeing anyone right now. Can you make an appointment with a Therapist and a pdoc? Tell them how you are feeling. If it's nessasary do you have a place you can go for an emergency? Here in the USA that would be an emergency room, but I don't know the equivalent where you live.
Take care of yourself first,the rest will follow. Sometimes it takes a while to find the right therapist and medication that really helps.
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kindly see above reply and help me decide
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Originally Posted by Breadfish
I'm sorry you are hurting.
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i am very sorry/angry for myself too
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Originally Posted by nyancola
i used to have a a lot of hate for myself.. it was the result of many things. what helped me to have some compassion for myself was to think of me as if i were thinking about someone else. it was the first time i ever felt any sympathy for myself. and the sympathy made me more understanding toward myself, so there was less internal conflict.
sometimes if you think of how you would feel for your child self it helps. think about how the child you were does not deserve to feel this way. and remember that child is still in you and you need to care for them. they need unconditional love, and if they dont have it you are the only one who can give it. they dont deserve to be hated they deserve happiness.
YOU deserve happiness.
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Originally Posted by waterknob1234
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i feel the need to tell you more about my current situation/myself for you to be able to better advice me
after my second divorce ended 4 months ago i moved to a different country, rented a house and started a new job
i thought that by doing so i would:
- Distance myself form the family members whom i feel contributed to my second divorce, especially my father who didn't want this marriage to happen in the first place regardless of his reasons now that's its over
- Distance myself from everyone who knows about my medical/mental condition because i am sick&tired of being different in a family of normal people
- Prove to myself and the others around me that i can succeeded on my own, i am man enough to do it and i don't need the pampering
but this isn't going well, because i can't distance me from myself, i am unable to forgive/accept/reconcile with who i am
you should also know that just 3 months ago, i stopped taking my antidepressants without consulting a psychiatrist..i did that because:
- i felt that these medications contributed to the state i am in now by making me indifferent/insensitive to myself/others around me ,
- i don't trust psychiatrists, they are the ones to put me on these meds in the first place..they just want to shut me up and this isn't proper treatment
anyway, since then i've tried:
- Different YouTube videos of "accepting my anxiety" which really helped me free myself from antidepressants and drastically reduced the impact of my morning anxiety attacks
- stopped smoking cigarettes two days ago, because they amplify my sense of fear/anxiety
- Stopped watching porn to improve my self esteem/respect
alas..nothing else changed much, i still feel fear/contempt/jealousy/envy toward these confident successful people around me and nothing but hate/loath/anger/sadness toward myself
please advice