I have not been through what you are going through, but I am sorry this is causing you pain. Bad experiences can cause a bit of trauma and leave one weary to go that route again. But in all honesty there are good docs out there too. I wouldn't be here if it weren't for a genuinely good doctor. Do not let a previous doc set the tone for all doctors. They are not all the same. If you don't like the one you find, keep looking. There is someone out there that can help you in the way you need.