I was diagnosed Bi-polar 1 about five years ago. I have spent a total of about two years as either an inpatient or partial hospitalization patient. I have received a total of 9 Electro Shock Therapy due to depression because I wasn't responding to medication. Ect did help enormously at that time but at this point have been on Social Security Disability for about a year and a half and have since added to the diagnosis of Bi-polar 1 with associated audio psychosis, Anxiety, sleep disorder and ADD. I recently spent more time as an in patient and was being encouraged to under go more Ect.

The Hospital ordered my medical history, but I received it at home, everything, every last page from nurses observations to doctor notes. Obviously they do not release these records to patients, it was an accident. But I read it all, I couldn't help myself.

When I went to see my new Family Doctor, I brought with me all my Lab results from over the years. She took more labs and when I went back a few weeks later, she wanted to start me on Delatersryl, Hormone replacement, I was hesitant, because I can barely keep up with the meds I was taking. About a month after, I found I was sleeping for six or more hours at a time, with out sleep meds and my awake dream like state was over. I also didn't feel so depressed. Most of the medication I take was stopped or reduced. My Psychiatrist really has not addressed the issue verbally. It's as now there are no answers. kinda of a wait and see! He has encouraged me to seek therapy since, I feel like they are preparing to tell me something that is going to need counseling.

Am I Bi-polar? Have I been missed diagnosed. Is this what they are preparing me for, to tell me I have lost over five years of my life over an oversight?