That is called depression. Depression always existed but people try to hide it. I'm like you, I have a reaction depression. You know, when something or someone hurts me I feel a noone. But, with each depression I feel stronger and now I don't wait for others help me to be better. I know what I do and I don't want to depend on noone but myself.

I have been living bad days those past days and there was a reason but I feel better because I overcame it. I understood that I have the right to feel low but I also understood that I had to go ahead. Doing the contrary your depression is asking for you, it's the key. Recalling the times you have been able to stand by yourself is also a key and recalling how you are when you are feeling well is another key. Does it hurt? Yes, it does. It's not funny going to work with a fake smile, it's not funny putting sunglasses to hide that you were crying but what else can we do? In life, there are two choices, the possitive or the negative and I hug the possitive. I choose the possitive over everything.